i don't know who am i? :(

These days,

I'm heading back towards the old me again.

I really don't know what am I thinking at all..

I seems to be pretty sure of something that i'm not sure of  :(

is that what I'm just imagining or that is really what is happerning?

if it is real,

why will my thoughts change so fast?

I really don't know who am I?

I hate to judge others, when I myself is not perfect.

but I really hope that my friends won't be that kind of person,

I'm trying my best not to listen to what others are saying 

and do anything that follows my feelings,

I hope no one will prove me wrong one day.

this is the second time, i gonna cherish it.

Dang! holidays is going to end in just 3 more days.

i really hate this! i'm so not ready :(

still with the amount of home work that i had not even touch at all, DIE! :(

i am hoping for a longer holiday,

i wanted to enjoy it before the school re-operns.

that's when there's not much time for enjoying left

and everyone will be too busy to even think about having fun.

this sunday, going out to junkai and suisin's birthday party,

i'm gonna become broke again.

that day is definitelly alot of fun awaiting us.

i'm really looking forward to it.

jun kai and sui sin:

"i 'm here first wish u all a early birthday,

have fun this sunday,

and don't forget to belanja us also XD"

these days,

everyone really changed alot,

i hope this same goes to me. ^^

this time is the second time,

feelings from the past i coming back again,

and i'm not sure of it!

i hope i won't over think anything again,

Hong Yaw, MAKE IT CLEAR!!!

i'm back again~ looking for a NEW me

i'm back again!

it had been ages eversince i last updated my blog.

no more emo post again, 

i'm now a happy person. 

"goodbye trouble!!" : )

in these period of time, 

i had been through a lot of things,

both happy and sad happernings.

i really hope i had became a better person..

some matter i hope i had really let it go,

letting go is really the best way for me get to know others more,

this goes same to her.

feelings of the past is all just what i'm thinking, imagining and dreaming.

i had stuck in a imaginary world for such a long time,

dreaming for so long,

its really time for me to wake up :)

i can just say,

cherish the people you REALLY love,

love someone is not something wrong,

do anything that u feel is right,

and never boast about it..

"no one gives a damn what are you doing to he or she.

 you need not to share your great great story about you 

 and her to the whole world! no one is interested with it!"

            

我最近好累啊！！！

我真的真的好累！！


最近真的太多东西要我处理了，


我只觉得我没能力办妥任何事情。


烦恼烦恼又找上我了，


我看我真的需要时间来休息，自我摸索吧。


放弃，


这两个字说得可到是容易，


真的有那么容易放手就好了。。。





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爱情，



对我来说，



就像一陈厚厚的雾笼罩在前方，



你永远都看不清前面的路是多好走。。。



可能是崎岖不平，也可能是一帆风顺。



该不该走下去，



就真的要看你自己的看法了。。。




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这一次我选择了放弃应该是暂时作个短暂的休息吧。。



毕竟我自己有时也真的很矛盾。



我觉得不应该因为空虚了太久而盲目的喜欢上一个人，



放开了可以让我判断哪是真的还是一个错像。。。



给了自己一个很肯定的答案才来动手吧。。



要放手毕竟真的很难，



这应该是一个对于自己的考验吧。。。



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运动会再过几天真的要来了，



这一次是我最后一次的运动会吧，



我真的很想拿到第三名的位置。



虽然真的是很难，



或者应该说是几乎不可能，



但是我都得试一试，



你一定不会来，



但我一定会去试，



有了你鼓励我一定会加油的！！！！



这次真的对我来说真的很重要。。。



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度过了这段时间，



这段考验，



我想我应该可以拿起勇气说我爱你了吧。。。



我写的这些东西你应该都没看过吧，



就算看过了也不明白我再讲什么。。。



我只想说，



我好想念以前的日子。



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希望我真的不会再emo了吧。。。



写着写着又过了一个小时，



我还是好好的去睡一觉吧。。。

time..

时间过得好快哦！！！


一转眼2月就快要过去了。。


颓废了这么久，


好不容易把心里所有的问号都想通了。。


没有了那么多烦恼，人真的会精神和开朗多点^^


有时想了想我真的很傻,


本来简简单单的东西却被我复杂化了。。。


所以嘛，


我说世上的人都像孩子一样有一个纯洁单纯的思想那有多好啊


烦恼少多了，问题就会少了阿。。


凡是看开点吧！！


我要开朗的过我的日子。 ^^

1st month of the year had finally past..

many stuff that i planned did not done,

many chances came and i wasted it one by one,

the gap between us is slightly closer,

but i just wanna know what are you thinking...

i am really so close to you,

but i am not brave enough to hold you,

sometimes i really had plan in my mind,

it seems to be perfectlly planned ,

but when i saw you,

i couldn't resist the fear...

and the plan didn't happerned

i'm really couldn't understand myself..

why am i still not doing something when i really like you soooo much!!!

everytime i get some news from my friends about you,

i was like doesn't care much about it,

but seriouslly i will be thinking/figuring about it for a period of time..

many times i met you,

i really wanted to talk to you,

when i approach to you,

i will just only smile and greet you..

WHAT A DISASTER IS THIS!!

why will i scared of talk, text and even chat thru msn with you???

i scared i'm annoying you..

i swear i gave many many of excuses to not to face the truth,

because i have no courage in doing it..

i swear i viewed your blog and your page everyday,

because i really miss you..

i just wanna know how are you doing today...

I AM SCARED TO LOSE YOU 1 DAY...

爱

爱到底是什么？？？
我真的还是摸末捉不到，
我真的不想在今年里完成不了我的诺言，
可是我真的做不到。。。
我不是想放弃，只是我认为现在真的不是时候。。。
从朋友到排斥到陌生人到现在的普通朋友，
我真的不想让旧事重来，
2月28就只剩下不到一个月。。。
机会一个一个来一个一个地给我浪费掉，
她EMO时我却没有勇气去慰问她，
我不知道我的问题是什么？？？
我不懂我在怕什么？？
就是那不起勇气。。。
可能上次的事还对我有很大的阴影吧。。。
我想要有人帮我，
最后还是一样的被陷害多一次。。
我现在只想在一次跟他做个好朋友,
到时机对了才动手吧。。
她真的变了很多，
重一个小女孩，变得成熟了很多，
也喜欢EMO，不在那么小孩子气了。。。
现在我除了打招呼及了解她喜欢的东西以外，
都没什么我可以接近她了吧。。。
连她要跌到了我都不会去扶她一把，
是不是很失败啊？？
有时大家认为让她知道是件好事，
可是连几句话都聊不上的朋友，
突然跟你说他喜欢你，
不会很奇怪及突然吗？？
结果会是她开始排斥，
到最后只能以“朋友的关系”分开。。
我真的只会在有把握时才能动手的拉！！！
希望不会太迟吧！！！
“And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
oh darling i wish you were here ”
vanilla twilight by owl city.

=)