Friday, September 24, 2010

cherishing, cherishing, cherishing...

oh my half dead blog...
i'm here to revive it again :)
3 months didn't update my blog, it seems long,
and yet it just passed by like that.
in this 3 months, i had been through alot of things..
i don't know where to start also.. hahaha


about a month ago,
i went through my SPM trials paper,
and guess what, i'm so not prepared for it...
i'm not the only one facing this problem i guess,
how can a common fifth former,
stuff hell lots of facts for the past two years in just few weeks huh.. haha
and now, i'm here to say that i had barely survived the past 3 weeks of sufferring..
PHEW....
i just BARELY survived this trials with all those tips' helps.
i couldn't imagine how will i suffer in SPM..
its time for me to brush up my results which are just "cukup makan"
* hey, you are reading a future scorer's blog now!! don't look other place, yes its you!! haha*



oh yeah, after trials. i seriouslly fully enjoyed my two weeks of holidays..
in that two weeks, fun?? no, it's EPIC, AWESOME!! Weeeeee~
futsal, badminton, gym, redbox, movies, KL, singapore and many many many more...
revisit to redbox after months is freaking fun, futsal and badminton is awesome,
and And AND Grown up , Step Up 3D and The Expendables is awesome movie..
at the last few days of holz,
i went to Kl to attend my cousin's wedding and went for a SHOPPING SPREE!!
the curve, one utama, pavillion and sunway pyramid..
too bad my leg, doesn't allow me to continue..
this wedding is my 1st time to join the "heng dai" gang of the bridal.
it was indeed an unique experience, because wedding isn't so boring and blend with it.
p/s: for those who don't know, "heng dai" is brothers                                                                                      


                                                               the newlyweds with my family.

now, school get back to schol again.
is it a good thing or a bad thing???
for me?? i guess it will be both :)
good in the sense that i couldn't miss anymore my high school life..
i'm trying my best to cherish it.
even how busy i will be in, how much work i need to do,
i will be a good experience for me in future.
high school life, is totally different with other stages of life..
i just hope to keep as much memories as i can..
just like what flower said "why you seems very high these few days??"
i will just say that only less than 60 days left in SDJ,
why don't you be crazy, have hells lots of fun and enjoy it,
than every day emo like a soulless corpse and ponteng huh..
once its gone, its gone..
thats why guys, enjoy ya :]


in the next 60 days remaining,
i'm looking forward for interclass football competition..
come on guys, semangat abit, buck up!!! WE CAN WIN!!
and stiew's video clip production and the class gathering...
in future, i might have very less time to update my blog,
but i won't just let it die...
more updates in next post, cheers!!! :D


                                      
                                                             weeee!! Happy Birthday to me!!! =]
                                                                              thank you sister!!
                  

Thursday, July 15, 2010

PLKN??

i'm back full with crap....
hmmmm, these few weeks
fully pack with loads of stuff,
many very memorable ones.. haha



world cup had just finished,
and YES!!  its SPAIN to win the world cup this time.
 WOOHOO!!
many said they were lucky,
many said they overrated,
and even said the referee is biased.
For me they were just awesome!! haha xD
they are my 2nd choice team in this world cup,
too bad this time brazill did not shine out well ,
and so i'm happy that SPAIN get the world cup!!




                                                                VIVA!! ESPANYOL!!!


next world cup gonna be BRAZILL'S TURN!!!!
COME ON BRAZIL AND SPAIN!!!
today, PLKN's candidate list was announced..
and guess what!!
I'M ENLISTED IN IT!!!!
i'm not happy and not sad when i knew i was enlisted..
as long as i'm in the 1st batch, in a good camp, go with my friends,
i'm satisfied with it.. :)
hopefully, NS camp will be freaking fun,
and i can really make new friends..
GUYS, in worst case scenario,
i'm going to submit a fake medical report or a college offer letter
or just get my legs break in this coming month..
cheh, i say till NS camp is like hell man.xD.
seriouslly, i wouldn't mind going for NS,
but think of i'm gonna be away from all of my friends especially the "♥" one,
i starting to feel like not going...
but guys, no matter what happern,
i will make a decision that i will never regrett.
at last, congratz to all those who get PLKN and those who DIDN'T!!!




last week all of us, took our last class photo in SDJ.
DANG!!!! FIVE YEARS IS SOOO DAMNN FAST...
have some fun during photo tsking session..
this photo gonna be our best photo in this five years,
it has all of the memories that we had in SDJ
this is the photos taken during photo taking session.




                     

Thursday, July 1, 2010

1st july

Recently, everyone is mad and going crazy over football,
 as world cup fever had just hit the earth....
 this same goes to me..
 couldn't get enough BRAZIL team in action,
 especially for KAKA AND ROBINHO!!
 they are just awesome!!!



                                                   the talented star that is about to shine..


                                    GOGOGO BRAZILL!!!!! :D 



currently, i'm quite busy with tonnes of things to do..  
trials is just round the corner,
DUH, i'm feeling the PRESSURE!!!
and FLAG DAY, is here again..
" Terima kasih abang.."  ** hint, hint**
this will be the last flag day that i can spend it,
and yet i'm kind of lazy to put an effort in it this year..
for those who saw this,  you what to do huh! haha xD



 today the 1st of July,
marked the half of 2010.
this means we will just have less than 4 months
and we have to say goodbye with our beloved friends..
DANG, i really don't want to leave high school, SDJ. 
the place where i meet my friends, the place where i grown up 
and the place where is my 2nd home :)
i will really cherish every moment every people especially the special one



                                               
                                                                               awaiting for 8th of july~
                                                                    THE TWIILIGHT SAGA ~ECLIPSE!!



cheers..  :)


Friday, June 18, 2010

its finally over! :)

camp fire,
its over, its finally over...
if u ask me how i feel?
i can only say that we really did our best,
there is alot of improvement in us,
dissapointment,
for sure there is.
we just lose out by 2 points
and the overall champion is others..
based on this results,
it is still a commitment to me.
i'm really tired of this now,
its realy time for me to let go
and let others take it over..
hopefully they will really grow up
and help us get what we lost yesterday.
a great thanks to those who at last came to help us.
i sincerelly apreciate all the help and effort u all put in.
you guys rocks!!! xD



                        DJ Gang!! xD (dj BSMM +St. JOHN)


                       DJ ST. JOHN 09/10 members.


more update in coming post,
keep in your mind " always strive and never yield!!"

Sunday, June 13, 2010

holz...

i bet this time, its for sure the busiest holiday i had ever been through.
and yet it will be indeed an awesome one.
i have loads of stuff for me to do,
and a very little time for me to spend it.


as a DJ boy,
campfire can be consider as the major annual event.
this is my last year in SDJ and this is for sure my last camp fire.
i'm hoping alot from this camp fire and i had put alot of effort in it.
now nothing will comes first than camp fire,
hopefully my efforst will really pay off..
hopefully DJ St. John division song an be sang proudly and loudly again.
guys wish me and DJ St. John luck!! xD






these is what currently stuck in my mind...
updates will be continued in the coming posts.
* keep my fingers crossed!!!*






cheerss... :)

Saturday, June 5, 2010

oozing with jealousy!!




i trully don't really know myself enough...
i will be jealous sometimes..
i will never have a strong stand...
as i said before, i just like you.
but i don't know what to do....






Sunday, May 9, 2010

exam :(

haha, this time is the same again.
i could not stop slacking!
don't be surprised! 
that is me, the new slacking Hong Yaw.
okay, i wasn't that bad yet..
just became lazier, lazier and lazier... 
i just gonna study as much as i can and pray hard!
" keep my fingers crossed" XD


finally, my injuries can considered fully recovered. Yay!!
a great thanks to everyone who had show me their care.
u all are just pretty awesome.
NO MORE BAK KWA!! 
i vowed to take care myself more,
daddy and mummy, no need to worry me so much :)


this year, campfire seems very special to me.
this is the first i put such an effort in it.
planning, thinking and figuring,
its not something easy though.
random quote "i rather kena train than train u all ar!!!"
i'm such a lousy St'John AJKT ya.. haha.
180!! qiong ar~
aim for the prize, do the best!!




friends seems to be best part of my life.
although they gave me some harsh advice,
it seems very helpful in my life.
i really need to speak more,
express myself more and be more socialise.
i need people to judge me, 
thats the only way i can improve myself.



i'm not the emo guy as before.
i just regretting, regretting and keep on regretting.
what's the point?
no one will help if you don't help yourself.
this same goes to god.
anyway, every tuesday seems to be the day
that i hoping sooo much in every week.


Hong Yaw,
chances is there.
help yourself and don't let your friends down!! :)


♥♥♥









Sunday, April 25, 2010

IU fest

this is my 1st IU Fest and my last.
it was indeed an awesome event,
1st time see all of my friends who used to be monkeys,
put in so much effort and time to learn a "BANGRA" dance.
overall the bands were awesome, modern dances were nice~
but too bad i missed the sketch...
anyway, it was still a memorable and marvelous one!
thumbs up for all SDJ, SSI and EC interactors :)



things wasn't doing well for me these days,
i had just badly injured my arms and limps,
and my handphone gone hay wire...
i can only pray hard that my wounds will get well soon,
doesn't leave any scar
and my handphone will recover by itself,
i really needed it alot.




4 months passed 2010,
remaining 6 months of my high school life,
did i changed to a better person?
did i grown up?
will i achieved my targets?
i still can 't give myself a exact answer. 
i need time, lots of time.
but do i have?
i will do my best, to give myself a best answer.
JIAYOU!! Hong Yaw :)




Thursday, April 15, 2010

the day that i will remember..

this is the 1st time I needed someone so strongly,


and this is the 1st time i felt that i'm lonely,


thank god my foolishness doesn't put me in any troubles and difficulties.


this proved me that a friend will not leave u alone behind.


is that a surprise for me? or it's just a white lie?


i will never know,


i will never dream on anything more.


i will do something,


at least it will be memorable for me.


maybe i'm foolish, maybe i'm noob,


but i knew my feeling had never proved me wrong.




          xxxxxxx

Saturday, March 27, 2010

i don't know who am i? :(

These days,
I'm heading back towards the old me again.
I really don't know what am I thinking at all..
I seems to be pretty sure of something that i'm not sure of  :(
is that what I'm just imagining or that is really what is happerning?
if it is real,
why will my thoughts change so fast?



I really don't know who am I?
I hate to judge others, when I myself is not perfect.
but I really hope that my friends won't be that kind of person,
I'm trying my best not to listen to what others are saying 
and do anything that follows my feelings,
I hope no one will prove me wrong one day.











Saturday, March 20, 2010

this is the second time, i gonna cherish it.

Dang! holidays is going to end in just 3 more days.
i really hate this! i'm so not ready :(
still with the amount of home work that i had not even touch at all, DIE! :(
i am hoping for a longer holiday,
i wanted to enjoy it before the school re-operns.
that's when there's not much time for enjoying left
and everyone will be too busy to even think about having fun.


this sunday, going out to junkai and suisin's birthday party,
i'm gonna become broke again.
that day is definitelly alot of fun awaiting us.
i'm really looking forward to it.
jun kai and sui sin:
"i 'm here first wish u all a early birthday,
have fun this sunday,
and don't forget to belanja us also XD"


these days,
everyone really changed alot,
i hope this same goes to me. ^^
this time is the second time,
feelings from the past i coming back again,
and i'm not sure of it!
i hope i won't over think anything again,
Hong Yaw, MAKE IT CLEAR!!!








Wednesday, March 17, 2010

i'm back again~ looking for a NEW me

i'm back again!
it had been ages eversince i last updated my blog.
no more emo post again, 
i'm now a happy person. 
"goodbye trouble!!" : )

in these period of time, 
i had been through a lot of things,
both happy and sad happernings.
i really hope i had became a better person..

some matter i hope i had really let it go,
letting go is really the best way for me get to know others more,
this goes same to her.
feelings of the past is all just what i'm thinking, imagining and dreaming.
i had stuck in a imaginary world for such a long time,
dreaming for so long,
its really time for me to wake up :)

i can just say,
cherish the people you REALLY love,
love someone is not something wrong,
do anything that u feel is right,
and never boast about it..

"no one gives a damn what are you doing to he or she.
 you need not to share your great great story about you 
 and her to the whole world! no one is interested with it!"


            






Friday, February 26, 2010

我最近好累啊!!!

我真的真的好累!!


最近真的太多东西要我处理了,


我只觉得我没能力办妥任何事情。


烦恼烦恼又找上我了,


我看我真的需要时间来休息,自我摸索吧。


放弃,


这两个字说得可到是容易,


真的有那么容易放手就好了。。。





~~~~~~~~~~~~~



爱情,



对我来说,



就像一陈厚厚的雾笼罩在前方,



你永远都看不清前面的路是多好走。。。



可能是崎岖不平,也可能是一帆风顺。



该不该走下去,



就真的要看你自己的看法了。。。




~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~




这一次我选择了放弃应该是暂时作个短暂的休息吧。。



毕竟我自己有时也真的很矛盾。



我觉得不应该因为空虚了太久而盲目的喜欢上一个人,



放开了可以让我判断哪是真的还是一个错像。。。



给了自己一个很肯定的答案才来动手吧。。



要放手毕竟真的很难,



这应该是一个对于自己的考验吧。。。



~~~~~~~~~~~~~


运动会再过几天真的要来了,



这一次是我最后一次的运动会吧,



我真的很想拿到第三名的位置。



虽然真的是很难,



或者应该说是几乎不可能,



但是我都得试一试,



你一定不会来,



但我一定会去试,



有了你鼓励我一定会加油的!!!!



这次真的对我来说真的很重要。。。



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



度过了这段时间,



这段考验,



我想我应该可以拿起勇气说我爱你了吧。。。



我写的这些东西你应该都没看过吧,



就算看过了也不明白我再讲什么。。。



我只想说,



我好想念以前的日子。



~~~~~~~~~~~


希望我真的不会再emo了吧。。。



写着写着又过了一个小时,



我还是好好的去睡一觉吧。。。

Sunday, February 21, 2010

time..


时间过得好快哦!!!


一转眼2月就快要过去了。。


颓废了这么久,


好不容易把心里所有的问号都想通了。。


没有了那么多烦恼,人真的会精神和开朗多点^^


有时想了想我真的很傻,


本来简简单单的东西却被我复杂化了。。。


所以嘛,


我说世上的人都像孩子一样有一个纯洁单纯的思想那有多好啊


烦恼少多了,问题就会少了阿。。


凡是看开点吧!!


我要开朗的过我的日子。 ^^


Sunday, February 7, 2010

1st month of the year had finally past..

many stuff that i planned did not done,

many chances came and i wasted it one by one,

the gap between us is slightly closer,

but i just wanna know what are you thinking...

i am really so close to you,

but i am not brave enough to hold you,

sometimes i really had plan in my mind,

it seems to be perfectlly planned ,

but when i saw you,

i couldn't resist the fear...

and the plan didn't happerned

i'm really couldn't understand myself..

why am i still not doing something when i really like you soooo much!!!

everytime i get some news from my friends about you,

i was like doesn't care much about it,

but seriouslly i will be thinking/figuring about it for a period of time..

many times i met you,

i really wanted to talk to you,

when i approach to you,

i will just only smile and greet you..

WHAT A DISASTER IS THIS!!

why will i scared of talk, text and even chat thru msn with you???

i scared i'm annoying you..

i swear i gave many many of excuses to not to face the truth,

because i have no courage in doing it..

i swear i viewed your blog and your page everyday,

because i really miss you..

i just wanna know how are you doing today...

I AM SCARED TO LOSE YOU 1 DAY...

Saturday, January 23, 2010


爱到底是什么???
我真的还是摸末捉不到,
我真的不想在今年里完成不了我的诺言,
可是我真的做不到。。。
我不是想放弃,只是我认为现在真的不是时候。。。
从朋友到排斥到陌生人到现在的普通朋友,
我真的不想让旧事重来,
2月28就只剩下不到一个月。。。
机会一个一个来一个一个地给我浪费掉,
她EMO时我却没有勇气去慰问她,
我不知道我的问题是什么???
我不懂我在怕什么??
就是那不起勇气。。。
可能上次的事还对我有很大的阴影吧。。。
我想要有人帮我,
最后还是一样的被陷害多一次。。
我现在只想在一次跟他做个好朋友,
到时机对了才动手吧。。
她真的变了很多,
重一个小女孩,变得成熟了很多,
也喜欢EMO,不在那么小孩子气了。。。
现在我除了打招呼及了解她喜欢的东西以外,
都没什么我可以接近她了吧。。。
连她要跌到了我都不会去扶她一把,
是不是很失败啊??
有时大家认为让她知道是件好事,
可是连几句话都聊不上的朋友,
突然跟你说他喜欢你,
不会很奇怪及突然吗??
结果会是她开始排斥,
到最后只能以“朋友的关系”分开。。
我真的只会在有把握时才能动手的拉!!!
希望不会太迟吧!!!
“And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
oh darling i wish you were here ”

vanilla twilight by owl city.

=)















Sunday, January 17, 2010

the title is not a title...

its was been ages for me to update my blog,
but i'm really
speechless now...
plenty of stuff is in my brain now...haiz...
i really dunno wat was happerning this morning
i saw someone that i really wish to see,
but it ends out not as wat i hope it to be...
i hope i'm fine now...
form 5 life is sometimes not as wonderful as what i expected...
how good will it be if i'm still in f2 or f3...
less stress, less homework, less stuff to be bothered, less things to think of...
f5 is the year where i'm should be mature...
but serioslly i'm still a kid in heart..
why things seems to be simple became complicated when we are handling it..
haiz....